Author: angelicmadrigal (---.wcoil.com)
Date: 05-26-2004 12:21
I would have to disagree that no one wants to or that no one likes to GM. Some of us just do not have the skills nessecary to make a decent GM. I've tried my hand at it more than once and I was AWFUL. You know the feeling of being on stage and literally being "booed" off by an audeince that's what happened. My players didn't hate me because I enforced the rules, my players didn't hate me because I had bad story ideas, my players hated me because I had the presentation skills of a dead rat. I'm painfully shy, uncomfortable playing male characters, and uncomfortable RPing many situations, and I'm not good at being in the spotlight.
People say this gets better with practice. I was in theatre for many YEARS. I did musicals, acting, vocal performance, I take
anti-anxiety medications NOTHING makes this any better. Being the one in charge the LEAD, the person in the SPOTLIGHT is something I can't do. So beig a GM is something I WISH I could do I just can't. I can do all the prep work for it. Hell, I can write a module, I HAVE written my own module for both Fading Suns and AD&D and tried to run it, but the running it is the problem. The actual speaking to a group, even as small as 3 people is near impossible for me.
I don't know why playing is any different. It just is. I have a hard time playing one on one with the GM as well. But if the GM gives us a situation where he just lets the PC's talk to each or a NPC as a group I'm fine.
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